I Will Survive...
dear all...
i think its really time i really need to do some write up.
my blog is like an ancient item already.
so history...
was feeling so low... haha...
had another bad relationship...
my family says i change alot...
i dunno.. i feel i'm the same..
my friend say u nvr get to see the change in you..
only outsider will..
hahaha....
the girl i used to be... has a terrible case, u see...
i play the role of the nice girl next door,
it gets cut like a knife....
life still have to move on...
i try to avoid everything that has gotta do with love...
hahah.... must learn to forget...
then i think about it...
i feel sorry for myself... that i used to cry so much...
yes.. i still do cry...
but not for you...
for myself... for being so stupid...
hahahah...
SHAME ON YOU....
u didnt know how to treasure me..
its ur lost...
hahahah... its not like i'm perfect...
but perhaps simply too good for you...
hahahaha...
trust me.. i am...
i deserve someone better...
i deserve a guy that appreciate me..
a guy that wont scold me "SHUT UP"!
in front of my whole family...
a guy that wont ask me to cook and wash plates
and do all shit when i am already
so damn tired from work...
i dont deserve someone that loves
another when he is with me...
i need a real guy that can protect me..
i dont need someone who gets impatient at little things
and start to feel agitated...
i deserve a fun loving guy...
i deserve someone better...
hahah
if not i shall be single...
freedom is good...
yet lonely at times..
but fortunately i got a really time consuming job..
hahah glad that i found the job...
if not, now i shall be at hougang ya,
probably plucking some flowers at woodbridge...
hahahahaha...
cuz too much time to think...
ya job got me occupied...
and shopping... and alot other things...
i hope after this blog i will restart my new life...
i wan the old me to be back... the fun loving me..
not the grumpy saddening me..
hahahah... so much more to say to everyone of you..
but i will only say the happy things...
i just dunwan talk about the past anymore...
its gone... and it wont be back.
no point repeating it..
my mistake for loving you...
i make sure i will never repeat....
you dun worth my love...
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams,
It is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 12:27 AM
Can You Take It All Away
hows life for me?
haha still the same...
or should i say...
still as bad...
i'm called bimbo at work.
i always think slowly...
at least i got a pretty face. ha ha.
sheda say i'm a sadist.
i think i am...
life really sucks...
love sucks more...
i dun dare to watch love movie...
dun dare to listen to love song..
i will cry...
stupid me...
i got scoldings from so many friends...
telling me i need to move on...
i dunnoo...
i just wanna tell you...
can you take it all away...
well ya shove it in my face,
this pain you gave to me.
i feel really sick now..
having a really bad sore throat.
lost my voice...
cant speak properly as certain words in the middle
of the sentence will be gone.
haha..... haha... haha........... someone help me pls...
why am i feelign this way!
its just another relationship wad!
wads wrong! find another one la!
wads wrong with me!
but i am so torn up...
i dun dare to love anymore...
no trust in anyone..
i dun even dare to speak to my aunts..
i really suck...
i am really stupid!
FOOLISH!!!!
i cried too much... till i am so tired and exhausted...
i felt cheated..
i felt its unfair...
my aunt saw me crying last night
and asked why am i still crying...
shes really disappointed in me...
haha i cry everyday...
hahah.. how can i be happy again...
cuz u fucker gave me such pain.
u say u are enjoying ur freedom..
yeah well i am suffering...
i hate you i hate you!!
why are u so irresponsible..
so selfish.......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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i'm so empty...
everyday i work..
i dunwan go home..
i scared to be alone..
i will cry... i will anyhow think...
i just kept crying..
i dunno why....
now i stay at home.. i kept crying...
i'm so tired...
SOS... someone pls help me i beg u...
tears just keep rolling down my face..
i think i look so much older now.. haggard...
you just fucking say you
want back your freedom
and you left me all alone here!!!!!!!!!!!
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With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams,
It is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 2:06 PM
