Saturday, November 27, 2004♥
we bought some drinks from MOS burger and sat at the seats outside taka and chatted for quite sometime. of coz took some pictures with her camera phone. and imagine we both zi lian kuang. hahahzz =D this is 2 i got to load into here. check it out.
ya sweet bohz? hehe. =) i like her camera phone coz the picture we from there make us look very flawles. lOl.
yup.. drinks from MOS, she had ice milk tea and me a strawberry milkshakre.. "my milkshake brings all the boys to the yard.." ahahahhaha =DDD yup i like this one. cutez rite. =D
actually got more picz but i didnt send to my mailz. yup another time bahz.
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 1:49 PM
Friday, November 26, 2004♥
cannot believe this actually happened to me. why am i so damn unlucky to land myself into this kind of situation. hate it to the core. =
i got a really not supportive LO that says that if anything were to happen to me, i need to deal with it myself and not my aunt calling her. i replied "my aunt called because she was concerned about me". was really really angry, couldnt understand why cant my aunt call? yes i know my aunt called the sch a few times when i wanted an appeal for SIP. i mean i did pay sch fees, and whats wrong with parents ( one of the stakeholders) calling?
my "super nice" in charge, meff wong went to my computer one day when i was not around and checked my outlook's sent mails and found out the mails me and caiying (my only sch mate at the office) exchanged. yes we talk bad about the company. saying nasty things like the company use us as cheap labours and them has got a horrible culture. horrible culture like go lunch also 1/2 h only. make me do telemarketing everyday and i feel so damn bloody sick calling!!! bloody sick!!! freaking sick!! everyday i say the same thing and everytime i get the same response. i just hate the job so damn much. its not that i scared of being rejected on the phone or what. i just hate it when i kept repeating myself on and on again. just 4 lines is all u need to work in there. "hi i'm stephanie from blah blah blah hr services, like to check with u if there is any recruitment going on? do u use agency? do u have our company profile?"
yup i also said things like i hope i dont get any job order for them and that they will get profit loss. i really wonder how can their company survive with such a line that they are it.
the company turnover rate is AMAZING!!! trust me. without the 4 weeks when i am still in the company i see 3 people come and go. have u wonder why? let me tell u, coz the job scope is boring, people are boring, everything sucks in the company.
ya they found out what i did and they hate me to the core. saying that i might influence the other people in the company if new people were to come in. my thinking: ya right, without my influencing they will still go in the end. and why they hell i wanna talk to them. say that i might damage the system and things like that. and say i might even burn their office down. ROLL OFF THE FLOOR LAUGHING. i will be out of my intelligent mind to do such things! mad, i've got a bight future, would not ruin it liek that. what the hell. i just like... haiz... =\ whatever it is....
i choose to leave when i was given a choice to stay. when they ask me if i will change to be good. i mean i have not done anything wrong except for the mails... i hate to type any future coz it spoil my mood to the core.
whatever you read should be within you and yourself ONLY.!
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 11:06 PM
Tuesday, November 23, 2004♥
pic 1: i love this pic the most. its taken from hui's phone. it can make it to this kind of brown brown old old effect, very stylo eh.
pic 2: another pic from hui's phone. heheh.. *niceee*
pic 3: this is from my phone de. cannot make an effect. =\ but we look we actign innocent ar.. hahazz
pic 4: another one from my phone.. slanted kind.. =D heez
pic 5: last one. seems like hui is having a edison smil. *grinz*
yeah before that we went shopping around bugis and hui wanted to buy alot of stuff, she already jotted down in her mind-notepad. haha... i wanted to buy this skirt from 77 street but there isnt any new piece so forget it... yup..
then after hui went home went to watch incredible with dear and it was good.. i give it 5 nachoz!! real great its a must watch. the story line is creative and graphics are interesting and unique.. must watch! its not just a normal cartoon.
yup.. thats about it....
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 2:12 PM
Sunday, November 14, 2004♥
it is to celebrate our 10th month and his birthday together. my treat! but after dinner zijian treat me to movies. we watched taxi. very funny. recommended. =)
here are some picture we took at country manna.
this is dear with his stun face while waiting for the food to come. hahah!! real blurz la my dear. lost his way when i ask him to go marina square find me. really that complicated to wallk from suntec to marina square ma? he walk to city hall instead. *.*
hehe!! soup is here! oh ya soup is darn nice! high recommended!!! dear seems real excited and happy ya... its his first time at country manna.
i had dunno what bake fish, real nice, and he had teriyaki chicken. there is garlic bread and soup. the soup is just superb! it comes with the puffy crust on top of it. damnzz its good!!! hahazz
here's a shot of me, acting the stupid-funny face again with that tut-tut mouth. hahahz~~
anyway dinner was real great. =)
movie was good too, had a great date with my dear. =D
dear thanks for the movie and the cardigan =D
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 11:45 PM
Saturday, November 06, 2004♥
clem: thankew alot, so so much. thank you for ur encouragement here and at msn and sms. =) thankew so much.
shan: thankew. u have been really telling all the positive thing, u are just so positive. =) heez. i'm feeling better now already. thanks for that day at parkway, u console me alot. =) thankew and oh ya gotta go out after ya exam okiez =)
Shui: my honey, my darling. i know u are upset with ur attachemnt now, be positive that its gonna end soon, at least earlier than mine. we're going out to buy our make up okie. haha =D
JuNel: thankew =) at least mine got money to take, hahz. i'm gonna think of only the positive side now. thankew for ur encouragement. i will think of u sometimes... but not all the times, later i get headache. haha!
Suhaina: thanks su!! yup, just hope it pass real soon. btw hows ur attachment? hope u are doing fine. and thanks for ur concern. appreciate it alot. =)
Eunice: Thankew. =DD hope u are doing fine at ur attachment, dun worry, when january come, u can save the travelling time already. =D i will be strong. =D
Zixiang: thankew!!! =) i know some of u guys got sucky attachment soon, just hope everything ends soon and treat it as a good life experience. thanks, i will hang on.
Naomi: thanks so much, din hear u for quite some time. i know work sucks, so everyone should treasure ur time at sch, i think its so much better there. hope things are fine for u too, been reading ur blog. be happy okiez =D
thankew so much friends... *hugz* u are the best. i'm really blessed to have you all here for me, it definately cheer me up alot. i will be strong, hang on, be positive! thankew! love you all! =)
i'm blessed...
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams,
It is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 1:55 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004♥
called my aunt and say that LO say that she is calling the school too much. angry aunt called back to LO and talk to her nicely.
LO called JanDec (my company) and ask about situation. Jandec willing to let me go, say that i am dilligent but show no interest in work. LO called back to aunt and tell her. Aunt say that if its like that she is willing to find another job for me. Found out that its alrite to let me work at her company's marketing department. almost going to be fine. but sch SIP commitee wants to see me.
saw me this morning, went to their meeting. it was the worst day in my life. stuck inside the meeting hearing nothing but forcing me to go back to work, tried to brainwash me, knowing that no matter what i have to stay at Jandec. everything is ok, just the fucked up sch dont allow it. if the answer is NO what for ask me to go down. cried throughout the whole meeting when facing 3 bitches against me. i got nothing is say. i felt like dying, never feel so miserable before. shouldnt have given me the hope that i can change. thought that things could change, but its all bullshit.
even if i cry my eyes out, they wont care. i felt like i'm being forced. life has never been so unhappy before. life has never been this worst. i've never felt like this sad before.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams,
It is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 5:38 PM
Monday, November 01, 2004♥
i got posted to this bloody HR company where they does recruiting. everyday what i have to do is from 8.30-9 : do candidate's resume. 9-12: do telemarking and ask company if they wanna hire ppl, and ans i get is NO NO NO...~ then 1 hour lunch break is deducted till 40 mins. then back to office, do telemarketing till 5 all the way then, all the way to 6.30 like that u souce for people who meet client's needs. bloody hell.
i am really sad now, depressed, no moral and hate life coz i hate my work so so much to the exten that i can cry till my eyes swallon and have nightmares at night. if i am given a choice, i would love to quit. there was this girl who is a perm staff but enter on the same day as i do, she was under probation for the first month, and she left on friday, after one week, i also think she cannot tahan the work there. she quit, how i hope i can quit too.
they say ask me do what website is bull shit one la. BULL SHIT! they say only wanna give me an hour, but in the end till now i did nothing. i went to get MC today as i cried too much till my eyes puffed up badly and now having block nose and sore throat. doctor gave me 2 days MC. still thinking of whether to go work tmr. i never felt so bad before, i never feel this depressed before, never, all my life. even exams, O level, i also can take it easily, but now i really dunno whats happening.
my family got so scared that told me that its alright that i fail my SIP, they are not waiting eagerly for me to feed them. my aunt already called up TP and tell them about my situation. but till now no reply from them. i really never felt so bad before i cried myself to bed. i need to see a psychiatric soon already.
i feel so bad as my friends are all geting attached to company and doing corp comm work, except me. they have real nice company. i need to work longer hours than most of them. (my company really wanna make full use of interns ar!) my only friend from TP, but she's taking HR, was separated from me. she went to another unti and now we have different lunch time. i got nobody to talk to during lunch time, i lost my cheerful self as i am facing dead and boring people everyday. and there are so many nice eating place at Raffles place i dont understand why these people only will go to 2 places to eat, the kopithiam opposite my office and china square. they have go no life!, dun pull me down.! *SHITZ* i got someone sitting behind my me, monitoring what i am doing every single min. even what i say to the client she can hear clearly. fuck it la. i feel so bloody depressed.
everyday what i am looking most forward to is going home, but everyday they wont let me off on time. and weekends. sometimes i just wish life stop on weekends.
my eyes are swallon, i never felt so bad before. i'm scared of the nightmares i had at night. i hate it when i go to work. i hate it when i wake up before sunrise and go home after sun set. there's no light in my life. i just hope and pray for the best to come.
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 5:31 PM
