Wednesday, April 26, 2006♥
i wanna be happy, i try to...
people at my work place...
they cheers me up a little, advice me...
encourage me... so i dun feel so bad when i am at work...
my bestest friends... u were there for me...
darline.. jas.... shan... thankew so much...
i dun show it out anymore...
sadness will only be in my heart...
but i will not show it out anymore...
i strive to be happy....
but i am so scared to be left alone,
so scared to be at home...
everything around me remind me of you...
i make myself really busy...
just to get rid of the time i have to think of you...
i just wanna do things to distract me from you...
but....
my screensaver still appear photos of you and me...
the mini birthday party i did for you...
the genting photos we took at the hotel...
the keychain you bought for me,
with the name stephiebaby,
i still use it...
the keychain with our photo on it,
its still on my desk...
i still wear things u bought for me...
the abercrombie sweater..
the brazilian heels...
everything reminds me of you....
even when i am happy...
i tear....
the sadness is there...
i dunnno how to stop it...
you send me 2000 miles down a dead end road...
leaving me alone there now...
there is no turn back...
there is no way ahead....
how would you wan me to do?
how would you wan me to continue?
i'm stuck there... and u are not gonna save me...
ima clean up my room for me, throwing away all our photo,
and the rocher chocolates you bought for me...
even they are not there anymore,
everwhere i look at my room, things still linger....
i dunno why it hurts so bad this time round...
people say relationship breaks up is part and parcel of life.
i know...
but once i think about you loving
another girl when you are with me
when i give you my all...
when i think about all the lies you tell me..
i cant stop crying....
why fool me...
or izzit i am a fool myself...
return me back my love..
its not fair..
i treat u really good.
and now u are giving me nothing but pain..
its not fair...
u nvr be fair..
u nvr tell her..
and i am the one suffering..
why....
why i dun worth you love..
why u cant treasure me?
why let me go?
why treat me bad?
why....
why say you love me when ur heart has someone else...
why...
why leave me there dying...
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams,
It is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 12:26 PM
