Wednesday, August 31, 2005♥
i have really no idea what to work as. at first i was really enthu about getting an office job, but as the time passes by, i think its not my cup of tea at this point of time; especially when i actually plan to further my studies next year. wanted to get a job at the ice-cream stalls so i can get free ice-cream, lol!... just thought of it only.
i feel rather useless, rather bad, everyday either i'm at home or i'm out shopping or interviewing. i feel so bad when my family ask me if i got any job yet. i feel so damn bad. and cash are running out; so damn fast for a shopping maniac like me. its so important to me that i get a job really soon to get some cash, but i'm getting nowhere and trying not hard enough, and i'm just so fussy. i feel damn bad.... really bad... FUCKING BAD!! feel like locking myself up.
i just have no idea why these people sometimes ask me to go for the interview but say that i have got no experince. isnt it clear enough that (at the resume) i have just graduated from poly, cant they read? or are the blind. haiz...
and sometimes my fucking bastard angzijian just pissed me off. i know he is quiting cigarettes at this moment and when one smoker doesnt smoke, he gets restless, bad-tempered. and ya threw it on me! cant stand him when he do those silly nonsense and make me hate him so much and then we he apologize like a little kid, my heart melts. haiz. so i tell myself not to get angry with him and just let him be. i just need to walk away and things will be move on to normal. i dunno why but i think my anger management is really good. hahaha! YA RIGHT!
i spend most of the time now, surfing the net, reading forums and reading story book. currently reading this book: my long tall hearthrob by geralyn dawson. its an awesome book! fantastic, i just cant get my hands off it. oh ya and my current fav song is kelly clarkson's because of you. i kept singing to that... sooths me.. hahahz...
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 9:31 PM
