Wednesday, November 03, 2004♥
called my aunt and say that LO say that she is calling the school too much. angry aunt called back to LO and talk to her nicely.
LO called JanDec (my company) and ask about situation. Jandec willing to let me go, say that i am dilligent but show no interest in work. LO called back to aunt and tell her. Aunt say that if its like that she is willing to find another job for me. Found out that its alrite to let me work at her company's marketing department. almost going to be fine. but sch SIP commitee wants to see me.
saw me this morning, went to their meeting. it was the worst day in my life. stuck inside the meeting hearing nothing but forcing me to go back to work, tried to brainwash me, knowing that no matter what i have to stay at Jandec. everything is ok, just the fucked up sch dont allow it. if the answer is NO what for ask me to go down. cried throughout the whole meeting when facing 3 bitches against me. i got nothing is say. i felt like dying, never feel so miserable before. shouldnt have given me the hope that i can change. thought that things could change, but its all bullshit.
even if i cry my eyes out, they wont care. i felt like i'm being forced. life has never been so unhappy before. life has never been this worst. i've never felt like this sad before.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams,
It is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
Parting is such sweet sorrow. 5:38 PM
